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Dedication, God, Holy Spirit, Jesus, Keep Pressing Ahead, Perseverence, Relationship, seeking God, single, single life
Wednesday morning I woke up. Threw on my Under Armour, got my manly German Shepherd, Bo, and went for a run. Trying to make my mile, I focus intensely. I have to make it. As I focus on the remainder of my mile, I come crashing into another runner. A gorgeous single woman running with her corgi. After an awkward moment of “What just happened?,” we met eyes. And then, as if in a movie, I walked up and effortlessly kissed her. Even more? She kissed back. A match made in Heaven. Actually, a story that never even happened.
It’s Wednesday evening. I got home from church an hour or so ago, after having dinner with some friends. I’ve spent my evening preparing for my lecture on Sunday, a lecture on Film, Christ, and Culture, that I’m leading at the church. I’ve sent my taxes off. And now I’m here. The only sound from another person that I hear is my neighbor in the next unit of the duplex. I don’t have pets, and I don’t routinely keep music on. Silence is golden. I sleep alone. And live alone. But life is well.
People often question why I’ve never had a serious relationship, in addition to other things, but these things are the result of being a visionary. Being that person that sees things of tomorrow as real as today, has its benefits. “Very few people are called to impact beyond their circle of influence. And an even greater few are called to move the world, as you are,” Richard Hirst explains. Time drips away steadily, as God works through the fullness of time and spirit, to put me where I need to be. He acts as a stage manager during a full scale production, calling the different crew members, and cast members into place, awaiting that magical time when the red curtain raises, and I stand, making my debut before the world. And in this time, I’m probably still single.
My singleness is not a stance of desperation or hardship. It’s a choice of dedication to God and His calling on my life. There are certainly some good, beautiful single women that I know who I like to envision spending my life with, but I have chosen a unique approach to my relationship life. I believe that the one God would have me pursue further will be one who will walk alongside me without effort. Then, she just might be the one. While this may sound incredibly selfish, I will return to the vision. Many women will not be prepared for the life that is to come. A very public life. A life with long hours and lots of travel. A life that can be weary, and filled with praise and with criticism. So in awaiting someone who is a good fit for me, I am protecting all of those not walking this direction from a life they probably do not want. But the one walking in this direction would make an easy transition. One that God would be also preparing for this.
But in the meantime, I’m very happy. I don’t need a relationship to make me happy. I am a busy go-getter, running from event to event, dedicated to my commitments. Learning and growing continually into the person God would have me be. And I’m growing by leaps and bounds. I’m an anomaly in a number of ways, and in rural America, being single at 24 could raise eyebrows. In this case, there is no reason to. The vision is there. And I’m walking into the fulfillment of it. I work a lot on various projects, travel frequently, and am always planning for something. To me, a college graduate without a job that requires it, I’m successful. And to the woman out there who I will marry, who may or may not be reading this at its publication date, I look forward to our crazy adventures together. Those will be fun years. Sweet Dreams.
This image is fictional…I don’t have flower wallpaper. 🙂